It has been a very long while since I’ve posted here and for that I’m sorry.
Those who have been ’round these parts know that things have been rather… rough… of late. I don’t want to keep repeating things, but scrolling back through the most recent posts of the last year/year and a half will tell you what you need to know.
In some ways, it feels like I’ve been floating about life since the events of June 24, 2021. There is a paradoxical feeling that my sisters and I are trying to settle the estate of my parents and, because of that, I haven’t been able to fully acknowledge the loss.
I might have noted this before but there was a Sunday a while back, perhaps some two or three months ago -this is another thing I’m noticing, time is so damn fluid and one day seems to blend into the next- where I woke up feeling quite good.
I felt like my old self and found myself smiling and enjoying the day more than I have any day since the collapse of Champlain Towers South and the loss of my parents.
What stunned me more than anything else was that in feeling relatively “happy”, I was able to realize just how down/depressed I have been all this time. The good feelings, alas, didn’t last beyond that day but at least having an understanding of those feelings has made me aware of the need to do things to try to get myself out of this pit.
Unfortunately, there were many things related to the estate that had to be dealt with. I don’t want to go into those things too much, but suffice to say the process is long and difficult but estate issues are being resolved, one at a time.
So after a month or more of not coming around here, I’m back. I’ll try to make up for lost time as best I can but, as was the case for the days between my last posting and now, I can’t guarantee too much.
For those who enjoy my writings, during the past month I worked on and completed -from my end, for the most part- a new project which hopefully will bear fruition in the next year. It’s something I can honestly say I’ve hoped to do in collaboration with someone I’ve known for some 30 years now and he’s a terrific talent and deserves to be better known.
Maybe this project will help make that a reality.
I’ll be speaking with him later today and we’ll see what happens!
I’m so sorry for your loss though I know it was awhile back. I lost my dad in May due to Parkinson’s, my mom in and out of the hospital for months now. Being in a good mood for extended amounts of time doesn’t happen very often and when it does I somehow feel guilty though I know I shouldn’t feel that way and my dad would want me to keep my head up and enjoy life. So I feel for you. A horrible tragedy. Hold on to the good things in life to keep you strong; Your storytelling, your friends, your pets, favorite shows/favorite books, even your favorite food. At least that’s what I do.
Michael
Thanks for those very kind comments.
It is a bewildering time, as I said, and made especially so because of both the tragedy itself and the very public nature of it. My parents were but two of the 98 people who died in the building’s collapse and there are many like me out there dealing with this. What makes this all the worse is that there really hasn’t been closure, at least for me. They passed but issues regarding their estate, the lawsuits involved, and dealing with recovery of what survived of their things (or rather, what could be found in the rubble) adds to the excruciating nature of this whole situation.
I’m hopeful that in 2023 we’ll finally have closure on many of the remaining issues but even then we’re talking about approaching the second year since the building’s collapse.
Again though, thank you so much for the kind words and for what it’s worth, I offer my sympathies for your own loss.